Saturday, September 6, 2014

Lamentations 3:22-23
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
His mercies never come to an end;
They are new every morning;
Great is your faithfulness.

This verse has truly been my anchor this week.

The last few days have been filled with exhaustion, frustrations, set-backs in my workouts, a diagnosis of patellofemoral arthritis in both knees, and a roller coaster of emotion and anxiety surrounding all of the above.

But...as consumed as I have been with my circumstances this week, through a last minute invitation to a worship night and  very last minute decision to attend, God was so faithful to meet me and refocus my gaze.

It's so easy to skim over this passage and not think anything about it...but no matter what you're dealing with...please hold the truth contained in these verses near and dear to your heart. God's mercies ARE new every morning...his grace IS sufficient for every moment...and he IS faithful in every circumstance. It doesn't mean life will be easy or everything will magically get better in an instant...but He will be there through every high and every low and he will provide for you in every situation.

I am so grateful for dear friends who believe in the power of prayer and so grateful for a God who speaks to us, who heals, and who is patient despite our constant failures.

Friday, May 23, 2014

Closing the chapter...


Where do I even begin? I've been looking back through some of my old posts here...from my high school days to my first job, from M28 to C4, from dozens of posts to hardly any...this blog has been with me for a long time. Since it's been a while, I figured I'd post some pictures and catch you all up on what life has been like lately.





Our family said goodbye to both of our beloved pets in the last few months...Shadow and Penny. We miss them like crazy and yet somehow, I still cannot convince my parents that we need another pet. (I'll never give up though...)


M28 has wrapped up for the year...and I have said an official farewell to being a part of and serving this campus ministry. It's been a wonderful 6 years with M28 but alas it is time for me to move on. I have gained so many memories and so many friendships that I will treasure for ages!
(Justin, Tyler & I)
(Wesley & Jon)
(Christelle, Turner, Muja, Kendall, Reggie, Becky, Scott, Hannah, & Andrew)
(Kelly & I)
(Becky, Scott, Andrew, Christelle, & Hannah)
(Muja, Christelle, Andrew, Emily, Hannah, Kendall, Turner, Becky, Scott, & Grace)
(Chandler & Becky)

I got my first "real" injury. Still not sure exactly what happened...one doctor told me that it was a fracture but the radiologist who looked at my x-ray said it wasn't fractured. So I'm going to guess that I just tore a ligament or something like that. But it put me in this wonderful boot thing for 6 weeks. 

But once I got the boot off...(actually before I was supposed to take the boot off)...I got back on the dance floor! I've been having a blast learning more and more salsa and bachata as well as getting to dance with masters such as Christian Sola, Jay Stylz, and Jeremey Rey. 
(Jeremey Rey & I)
(Me at the Charlotte Salsa Invitational)

My nephews have grown a TON!!! Carter(right) will be 8 in July, Landen(left) will be 6 in August, and Blake(center) just turned 4 a few weeks ago. (Photo courtesy of my lovely sister who never seems to look any older)


My sweet Granny had a mild stroke right before the huge snowstorm this year. Thankfully she's been doing well and is still up to her feisty ways even though she moves a bit slower than she did before.

I chopped off over a foot of my hair...

...and I've finally had time to start reading again!!! (I've read two books already this week)
(The Fault In Our Stars is a FANTASTIC book by the way)

As you can tell, it's been busy the last few months. Friendships, challenges, worship, heartbreak, late nights, laughter, hard work, deep discussions, growth (sometimes painful), fruit, trips, roommate issues, community groups, meetings, interns, planning events, bible studies, book studies, coffee, movie nights, snow days, discipleship, events, prayer, quiet times, tears, loss, blessings, dance, music, books, nannying, children's ministry, and so much more...this last chapter or season of life has been so full. I am super excited to see what God has for me next.

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Anthem 2k14

Well, last week we got back from our annual spring break retreat to Florida...our awesome cinematographer  Vince Freeman captured this footage from our week. Photos will come soon I promise!!!! God did so much while we were down there and it has been so amazing to be a part of this crazy group of college kids who are completely sold out for the Gospel. Enjoy this glimpse!!

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Slavery Still Exists...

It exists right now...in your country, in your state, in your city, and if you're like us...even on your street. Slavery is not a thing of the past...unfortunately, it is worse than ever. Today, 27 million men, women, and children are sold into slavery.

Many people don't know about it. They think it was abolished by Wilberforce or Lincoln...but it's still happening.

We can put a stop to it. Em and I fully believe that if we work together, we will see slavery completely eradicated in our generation. We are in it to end it. Will you join the fight for freedom? Will you take a stand with us and tell the world that you won't stand for slavery to continue?

Help us raise awareness...join the End It Movement. Go to enditmovement.com to find out different ways you can help spread the word. Start by drawing a RED X on your hands...let the world know that you are in it to end it.

Awareness is the first step to putting an end to slavery. We can't end it if no one knows. Spread the word starting now...February 27th is Shine a Light on Slavery Day...Raise your voice for those who have lost theirs.

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Faces from the Bible

Happy New Year! I hope you can forgive us for failing miserably at posting last year...hopefully this year will be a bit better! To kind of give you a quick update before I get to my post, I'm still interning with M28 and it's still awesome...keeps me busy about 60 hours a week which is why my posting life kind of died...but my internship is over in May so hopefully that'll free up a bit more time for blogging. *crosses fingers*. Em has been busy with school...she made it into the culinary program which is a HUGE accomplishment. We're super excited for her! 

Anyway...this post doesn't really have a point to it I don't think(maybe it will by the end)...I just kind of wanted to share something that's been going through my head for about a month now. I don't know if any of you have ever thought of the Bible as your personal history book. It's hard for me to think of it that way at times. We know the stuff in there really happened and that it's part of history...but have you ever really made the personal connection? Even with American history I have trouble relating to it unless I know for a fact that I have an ancestor who lived during a time period or fought during a war. Have you ever thought about the people in the Bible as your ancestors? The thought had crossed my mind a few times over the years but it never became real to me until about a month ago.

Pharaoh Ramses II of Egypt.
Image Library of Christian
Theological Seminary.
It was about 3am on a Monday morning...I had accidentally fallen asleep Sunday afternoon so of course I was up all night. Thankfully Netflix is awesome for those moments and I found this really cool documentary on Ancient Egyptian mummies. (A little background for you...I studied Ancient Egypt for an entire year when I was in grade school...I've always been interested in mummies specifically but Egyptology as a whole has always peaked my interest.) Anyway...after that came 2 more documentaries...I just couldn't stop watching. But the moment that kinda kicked me in the face was when the Islamic guide in the 3rd documentary stood by the sarcophagus of Ramses II (aka Ramses the Great...aka Moses' brother) and as they removed the lid and Ramses' mummy was revealed, he stopped everyone in the room and said in the most breathless voice I've heard: "Guys, this may be the only face we ever see from the Bible." I had to stop the movie and just stare for a moment. I was looking into a face of a man who grew up with Moses...who had seen the plagues first hand...who built Egypt...who saw God at work. This man was so powerful he kept God's people in slavery for years and then only let them go once his own son was ripped away from him through the Passover. I was sitting there in tears as the Bible became even more real to me. 

That moment has really changed the way I think about the Bible and the people in it. These people we read about were real...they were more than words on a page...they really lived...there's enough proof that even the non-Christian guide was awed by being in the presence of Ramses II. The Bible and the people in it are part of my heritage...how they lived and what they did paved the way to where we are today. I'd like to challenge you to read the Bible with a new perspective this year...if you've already done this then you're way ahead of me, but that's okay! Get to know the people in the Bible...who they were, where they lived, how they lived, and most importantly...how God worked in them and through them and around them. God gave us these people to learn from...just as Mary sat at the feet of Jesus, we too can sit at His feet and the feet of those who walked with Him...the feet of those who have been part of God's plan all along. Dig a little deeper this year...take the time to sit at their feet and reflect on God's work in their lives. The more we learn from our past(the Bible), the better equipped we are to share it with others. I hope you guys have a wonderful 2014 and hopefully this will be the beginning of many more posts this year! 

Thursday, November 7, 2013

HUGE Church-Wide Yard Sale!


M28 is having a Yard Sale!!! This coming Saturday, November 9, 2013 we are having a Church-Wide Yard Sale to raise money for our Spring Break conference - Anthem. We need your help! We can't have a yard sale without donations of items...so if you have anything in your attic, basement, closets or garage (or anywhere else) come drop it off Thursday 9-5 or any time Friday at 6400 Prosperity Church Rd. Charlotte, 28269. Then come shop on Saturday from 6am-12pm!!! Can't wait to see you all!

Sunday, October 13, 2013

Passion 2013, Session 2

Day two of Passion 2013 and once again, worship beforehand was intense and powerful and from the first song we could all tell that the Spirit of God was there with us, which is seriously the most incredible feeling that I've ever known.

Beth Moore was our speaker for the second session of Passion. It didn't really register to me why she picked the subject she did until the end of her message, but when it all tied together, I thought it was amazing and powerful. When Beth started her talk, she began by making statements that really registered with me; and going back now and listening to it again, it seems twice as insightful. She told us that scripture study had just as much to do with participation as worship does, that its about leaning into the word and living it. I realized that I should have just as much withdrawal from lack of bible studies that I have for lack of worship.

She asked us what we believed would happen if we were all so set aflame for the word of God that for the rest of our lives, we can't get enough of it because if we have the kind of passion we have for worship and we put it together with a love for God's word, there would be no restraining the potential of this generation. We have to protect our love and passion for both worship and scripture study.

Matthew 26:17-30 was the scripture for that morning's message: the last supper. We actually got to see and understand what actually took place at the table. We went beyond bread and wine, beyond ritual. We dove into the significance behind everything that had taken place and it was truly incredible. It was the first step into the new covenant with God. To be able to truly appreciate and understand the importance of communion, we have to start with the 3,500 year old ritual feast of the Jewish Passover, the Seder. It's extremely specific in the steps taken during the three hour meals and the order in which everything is done in accordance with the Jewish law set forth from the time of Moses. The things that absolutely had to be on the table were unleavened bread, the roasted lamb, bitter herbs (or horseradish) that serves a key point in the story, parsley (symbolizing rebirth in springtime) dipped in salt water (symbolizing the parting of the Red Sea), and of course wine.

At the start of the night, Jesus would have poured wine into His cup, then into everyone else's. He would have stood up and said a specific opening blessing over that night's meal. The wine represented the covering of the blood. For them it would have been a reference to the lamb's blood over the doorways of the Israelites for salvation from the plagues of the deaths of their firstborn sons. For us, the wine symbolizes the covering of our sins by Jesus' blood. Jesus and His disciples would have raised and drank from the cup four times. Exodus 6:6-7 tells us the meaning that coincides with each cup. Beth had us repeat back the meanings a few times to ingrain their importance in our heads.

  • Cup 1 was the promise that God will bring us out. 
  • Cup 2 was the promise that He will deliver us from slavery. 
  • Cup 3 was the promise of redemption. 
  • Cup 4 was the promise that God will take us as His people. 
Cup number one has been referred to as the cup of sanctification, so after that cup would be the hand washing ceremony. This was the point in the last supper where things started taking a different turn. Instead of washing the disciples hands, he started washing their feet. At this point, a question would be asked by the youngest male at the table concerning the meaning of the Passover and the second cup would have been poured, but not sipped. To answer the questions, an antiphony, or a statement/ response conversation would happen to tell the story. The Hebrew phrase, Dayenu, would have been the response to each statement, meaning "It would have been enough". Had he brought us out of Egypt, but not executed judgement against our enemies… had he given us their possessions and not divided the sea for us… had he divided the sea for us but not brought us through it on dry land… had he sustained us in the wilderness 40 years and not fed us with mana… had he fed us with manna but not given us the Sabbath… had he given us the Sabbath but not brought us to mount Sinai… had he brought us to mount Sinai but not given us the Torah… had he given us the Torah and not brought us into the land of Israel… had he brought us into the land of Israel and not built the temple for us... Imagine the theme of that night through Jesus' eyes, knowing that all of those things would not have been enough. Had He performed miracles that made the blind see, the deaf hear, and the lame walk, had He cast out demons and raised the dead, had He been scorned, mocked, and bruised, but not bled one drop, it would not have been enough for our salvation.

They would then read/sing Psalm 113-118 in antiphony and the second cup would be sipped. At this point, they would all be eating, but they wouldn't have come to the heart of the meal yet. This is when Jesus says to them that he will be betrayed, as they partake of the bitter herbs. These herbs were meant to burn your sinuses and bring tears to your eyes. This symbolized acting out the bitterness of slavery and the women who had lost their firstborn sons. This is where they would get to the main part of the meal, the roasted lamb. The interesting part of this specific Passover dinner was that there was a lamb on the table and the lamb of God at the table. Jesus understood the significance of this meal more than anyone because He was about to fulfill it completely.

Next, Jesus holds out the third cup, the cup of redemption, as stated in Luke 22:20.
In the same way, after the supper he took the cup, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you."  
After this he dramatically breaks the unleavened bread and tell them that it's His body, symbolizing the way His body would be broken for them. Then, instead of adding wine to everyone's cups, as was the ritual, Jesus had them all drink out of his cup. In Exodus 24:8, the blood is sprinkled over the people as the first covenant. To symbolize the new covenant, the wine (Jesus' blood) was offered to them, but they still had to decide to take it. In the garden, Jesus is praying for this cup to pass from him. This is not a metaphor, as I had always thought it was. When we go through trials and ask God to let these cups pass from us, the only way He will leave the cup in our hands is if it is absolutely crucial to what we are doing on this planet for His mission. This cup could not pass from Jesus.

Lastly, Jesus gets to the fourth cup, also referred to as the cup of the in gathering. This one symbolizes God taking us as His people, which is why it was significant when Jesus says that He will not partake of it again until He drinks it new with us in Heaven. This is fulfilled in Revelation 19, at the wedding supper of the lamb. They then sing Psalm 118 together.
Shouts of joy and victory resound in the tents of the righteous: “The Lord’s right hand has done mighty things! The Lord’s right hand is lifted high; the Lord’s right hand has done mighty things!” I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the Lord has done. The Lord has chastened me severely, but he has not given me over to death. Open for me the gates of the righteous; I will enter and give thanks to the Lord. This is the gate of the Lord through which the righteous may enter. I will give you thanks, for you answered me; you have become my salvation. The stone the builders rejected has become the cornerstone; the Lord has done this, and it is marvelous in our eyes. The Lord has done it this very day; let us rejoice today and be glad 
This particularly significant because Jesus knows that He is heading straight toward His arrest and execution. He knows that by that time the next day, He'd be put to death. All of history had been leading to this moment. So verse 24 was especially meaningful, remarkable really. Knowing all that was coming and blood mixed with sweat pouring from His body, He says "This is the day the Lord has made, we are going to rejoice and we will be glad in it". We don't just have good news in the gospel, we have glad news. Good is a condition, glad is an emotion. Glad means that we have gotten it, that we have realized the significance of what He has done for us. What would happen if when somebody asked you how you were, you told them that you're glad? "I'm good" is a conversation stopper, "I'm glad" could lead to a conversation about the gospel.

We should be glad because we are no longer accountable for the things we could not bear to be under, that God saved us from them. The blood that was shed on the cross was God saying, "It is enough". And because it is enough, He is enough. Our pasts don't have to be our futures God's mercies are new every morning The enemy will fall. Everything works together for our good. We have not out sinned Christ's ability to redeem us. There is a world coming with no more bad news or death. These are some of the things I'm glad about. Psalm 126:3 says The Lord has done great things for us; we are glad. The gospel is glad news, the best news that a broken world and a dying generation will ever hear. The hype of this message cannot die out after Passion, as Beth Moore pointed in her message, it's too important, it's too life altering not to proclaim, too urgent to play it safe with. This world needs Christ now.

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Passion 2013: Session 1 - Can These Bones Live?

So I'm finally getting around to posting about Passion 2013. I know, I know...6 months is a bit long to wait for posts but being an intern is a very life-consuming job! It's been fun reading through my Passion notes again and being freshly challenged by scripture. (These posts are going to be a little long...I have a lot of notes from other parts of the conference/family groups)

Being at Passion this year exceeded my expectations in every way. Last year when I was watching from home, it felt like my heart was exploding from all that God was doing 247 miles away. Being there this year...I don't even know if I can put into words what it was like to be there. Just being there with 60,000 other college kids who are completely sold out for God was enough to bring tears into my eyes as I stood outside in the rain waiting to enter the Dome. I will never forget the sight of the Georgia Dome filling to the brim with believers...I'll never forget the sound of 60,000 voices lifting up the name of Jesus in worship...I'll never forget my family group...I'll never forget the silent walk or the candlelight service or the sound of 60,000 people shouting for freedom...those days will forever be imprinted on my mind as a day when I saw and felt God move in ways that I never have before. 


I wrote in my notebook (yep taking notes before it actually started...typical) "It's an army here." It's such a true statement...in the middle of this crowd of 60,000 people, I've never felt smaller...but at the same time it was so encouraging to be able to see and know that I'm not the only one...that there are a ton of people just like me...my generation is here and we still love God and we want to make his name known in this world.


To start the conference off, Louie came and gave us a few facts...there were more people in attendance at Passion than there were at the Chick-fil-A Bowl(!!!) and there were 54 countries and 2022 universities represented in the Dome(!!!). We were also told that because of our generous donations of towels and socks last year, the homeless shelters in Atlanta donated 10,000 towels and 60,000 pairs of socks to Hurricane Sandy Relief because they knew we were coming back this year with more. Things have barely gotten under way this year and we'd already made a difference. 


Then, we were asked to get into triangles...groups of 3 people...and pray together. We spent time praising God, praying for God to be present among us, and for freedom and justice. We prayed that walls would be torn down, that people would hear the roar and know that Jesus is coming. What a roar too...worship was absolutely mind-blowing. Yes, it was loud...but when you have 60,000 people all singing at the top of their lungs...it's gonna be loud...and I wouldn't have expected any less. Chris Tomlin, Matt Redman, Kristian Stanfill, Christy Nockels, Kari Jobe + more led worship each night...what is so amazing about these people is that they weren't concerned with performing or "doing it right"...they were concerned with worshiping God. I can't tell you how cool it was to see them back away from the microphone or dance around or just stand there and listen during worship. I am so grateful for men and women out there who are more concerned with God than anything else. 


Louie Giglio brought the first message of Passion. He opened by saying that we believe in the God who does immeasurably more...not just a little bit more but immeasurably more. More than we could ever ask or imagine...even when we can't see immeasurably more in our lives...he's still done immeasurably more and he will continue to do immeasurably more. God wants to do immeasurably more in and through your life than you could ever ask or imagine. All he wants you to do is go. 


He isn't just the God of immeasurably more during a conference but he is the God of immeasurably more in the context of your life. When we are foolish, God intervenes. This is very much what happened in Ezekiel. God intervened in the lives of his people who had been scattered into captivity by their own foolishness. We aren't thrust into captivity (spiritual, physical, mental or any other type of darkness and captivity) by someone else's decisions or actions...we fall into captivity by our own doing.  We are more foolish than we want to admit. It's easy to resign yourself into captivity...sometimes it just seems bigger than you can handle...depression, sin, circumstances...I understand...believe me. There are times when you walk into church and you just feel so out of place because you are bound up inside. When you are in captivity, when the darkness is consuming, it's because you've forgotten who God is. You've allowed your foolishness to get in the way of the truth about God. But there is hope in this...whatever has its grip on you is no match for the God of immeasurably more. He always intervenes...he always sends a voice into the captivity you are in. 

Ezekiel 36:24-27 I will take you from the nations and gather you from all the countries and bring you into your own land. I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you shall be clean from all your uncleannesses, and from all your idols I will cleanse you. And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes and be careful to obey my rules.
God sends a voice, he comes and he breathes on people who are made of stone. He gives us his living, beating, breathing heart in place of our dirty, rotten, dead, stone hearts. He wants to bring us back and cleanse us from our idols! He doesn't want us to be stuck in captivity anymore. 
Ezekiel 37:1-2 The hand of the Lord was upon me, and he brought me out in the Spirit of the Lord and set me down in the middle of the valley; it was full of bones. And he led me around among them, and behold, there were very many on the surface of the valley, and behold, they were very dry.
God brings Ezekiel to this valley where the ground is littered with bones. For us, the valley is the low place, the darkness and the downside of life. This valley was a literal valley...a literal valley filled with real bones. Not new bones...dry bones...brittle bones. "Dry" is when we are parched, desperate, desolate, weary, hungry. It means that death has come...and the after effects of death have come...when everything returns to dust. 
Ezekiel 37:3 And he said to me, “Son of man, can these bones live?” And I answered, “O Lord God, you know.”
How's that for a question? Can these bones live? Seems kind of obvious...but God makes us think...he asks us questions to test our understanding of his sovereignty and power. Ezekiel's answer is right on point...only you know God...only you. God doesn't want us to figure it out ourselves...he wants to teach us something. He's not looking for our answer...he's looking for us to realize that we can't come up with an answer and that he's the only one who has the answer! We cannot solve any problem, rescue ourselves from captivity, come clean from addiction, be cleansed of sins, or raise ourselves from the dead on our own power...only God. You have to trust and believe that he knows the answer!
Mark 9:14-18 And when they came to the disciples, they saw a great crowd around them, and scribes arguing with them. And immediately all the crowd, when they saw him, were greatly amazed and ran up to him and greeted him. And he asked them, “What are you arguing about with them?” And someone from the crowd answered him, “Teacher, I brought my son to you, for he has a spirit that makes him mute. And whenever it seizes him, it throws him down, and he foams and grinds his teeth and becomes rigid. So I asked your disciples to cast it out, and they were not able.” 
This little boy is in captivity. His father has come begging and pleading for the disciples to cast the demon out of his child but they are not able.
Mark 9:19-20 And he answered them, “O faithless generation, how long am I to be with you? How long am I to bear with you? Bring him to me.” And they brought the boy to him. And when the spirit saw him, immediately it convulsed the boy, and he fell on the ground and rolled about, foaming at the mouth. 
I love Jesus' response to this situation. I always imagined him rolling his eyes and sighing...like "Are you serious right now? I can't believe you still don't get it!" I know that's not the case because that would be impatience and Jesus was perfect...so I'm quite certain it didn't happen that way. But the thing to truly notice here is that the demon attacked the boy as soon as he saw Jesus. The demon knows he's going to lose as soon as he sees Jesus but he tries one last attack.

How many times have you ever felt called to do something or called to go somewhere or on your way to a conference or church...some place where you were going to meet with God...and it seemed like everything was going wrong and the sky was falling on top of your world caving in? Satan will do everything in his finite little powers to try to stop you from meeting with God and from obeying his calling on your life. Satan spins chaos into our lives when we see Jesus. But here is the good news...things can be going absolutely crazy...but Jesus can focus in that moment...it doesn't matter what is going on, Jesus is still laser focused into your world. God wins. 

Mark 9:21-24 And Jesus asked his father, “How long has this been happening to him?” And he said, “From childhood. And it has often cast him into fire and into water, to destroy him. But if you can do anything, have compassion on us and help us.” And Jesus said to him, “‘If you can’! All things are possible for one who believes.” Immediately the father of the child cried out and said, “I believe; help my unbelief!”
There is no "if" with God. There has never been and will never be any "if" with God. He can do whatever the immeasurably more happens to be in your circumstance. The father's response is perfect..."I believe; help my unbelief!" That is the perfect prayer. I do believe you can do immeasurably more but help me in the areas that I don't believe it! Pray it...live it...daily! God loves that prayer!!! He wants to hear our honesty in saying I believe with 1% of me but help the 99% of me that doesn't believe you! He can work with that!
Mark 9:25-27 And when Jesus saw that a crowd came running together, he rebuked the unclean spirit, saying to it, “You mute and deaf spirit, I command you, come out of him and never enter him again.” And after crying out and convulsing him terribly, it came out, and the boy was like a corpse, so that most of them said, “He is dead.” But Jesus took him by the hand and lifted him up, and he arose.
He lifted the boy to his feet. That is the immeasurably more of the story. Look back to Ezekiel
Ezekiel 37:4 Then he said to me, “Prophesy over these bones, and say to them, O dry bones, hear the word of the Lord.
Ezekiel knows the power of God. (Ezekiel 1:25-28) God is bigger than you could ever dream and he is coming here...saying to you "do you believe that I can do immeasurably more in your life and in your generation?!" Our only response should be "Oh, sovereign Lord, only you know. Help my unbelief."
Ezekiel 37:5-6 Thus says the Lord God to these bones: Behold, I will cause breath to enter you, and you shall live. And I will lay sinews upon you, and will cause flesh to come upon you, and cover you with skin, and put breath in you, and you shall live, and you shall know that I am the Lord.”
God did 4 things...he spoke his word to the bones, he breathed into the bones and caused them to live, he put tendons and ligaments back where they had been and covered them with skin. For us that means that we are to speak truth and life and scripture into our lives...into our darkness. It means that God heals what is broken in our lives...we can't count him out because he can do it! And when it's all over, we'll know. We'll know that whatever happened inside of you could not be done by any man...you will know that He is the Lord and he has made you alive again in the midst of all the rubble and darkness. God is alive! Let your prayer become this: "I'm in the valley of dry bones - speak to me, breathe in me, reconnect all that has been broken and make me live again!"

The best news is...God has already done immeasurably more...he sent his son. Jesus is here to free you from bondage! He breaks chains and tears down walls! He gives freedom to the captives and life to the dead! Don't forget that sin didn't make us bad...it makes us dead. DEAD. But Jesus, and only Jesus, makes us alive again! Hear the voice from heaven that is intervening into the foolishness, darkness, captivity and death. Pray with honesty...ask for help with whatever part of you that doesn't believe. He can make your bones live again. He can make your dreams live again. He can make your heart live again. He can heal you of your wounds. He can rescue you from addiction and slavery and sin. He can restore your memories. He can. The same God who conquered the grave dwells in you. Speak Lord, the valley of dry bones is listening now.


What a start to Passion 2013. God had exceeded my expectations the split second I walked into the Dome. That's all it took. Even better than that, he continued to blow my mind minute by minute for the rest of Passion...and even more than that, he's still continuing to do immeasurably more right now in my life. I love that Louie said we didn't go to Passion to huddle up in a circle, we went so that we could explode back into the world sacrificing whatever needs to be sacrificed in order to spread the Gospel. I love that there are 60,000 people out there praying this "I believe you can do immeasurably more through me. Give me eyes to see the immeasurably more you want to do through me." I love that Andy Stanley came to Passion and prayed over us. I love that we, as a generation of young people have the ability and the opportunity to start the End It Movement to raise awareness about modern day slavery. God is working...God is moving...God is speaking. Are you listening?


I also have to share about community groups...ORANGE CG all the way! (We love you Freddy T!) Every morning and every evening, Passion broke down into "small" groups of about 5000 people called community groups. Each of those groups broke down into groups of 8 people...called family groups. Each group would spend time talking about the message, helping each other process what we'd heard, and praying for one another. My family group was the absolute best. I couldn't have asked for better people to spend Passion with.
Zachary, Casey, Me, Maddie, Cassidy, Emily, Jason and Charity. 

Passion 2013, Session 1

I feel like I could spend forever thinking about what exactly to say about my experience this year at Passion 21013 and probably a longer time writing it out. So in the interest of saving time and keeping my words unrehearsed, I'm just going to keep typing and pray that God will give me the right words to adequately convey how incredible it was.

Being one person in a sea of 60,000 people was the most humbling and exhilarating experience of my life. There was so much power in the thought of so many people driven both together and out toward the world with the purpose of glorifying and magnifying God and fighting for His purpose of bringing freedom and hope to a dark world. 60,000 of us stood as one, proclaiming the majesty of God and praying for revival and it was beyond words. Worship in the Dome was a force I'd never encountered before. There truly is something about thousands of voices praising God with one voice and it only grew in intensity when the worship leaders stepped away from their microphones and stopped playing their instruments. Worship really was all about God and we were continually coming to Him and thirsting for more of Him and that was incredibly powerful. And I must admit that even now, six months after Passion 2013, I'm still having bouts of worship withdrawal, especially as I sit here listening to the Passion music and thinking of just how great worship was.


My favorite experience from Passion 2013 happened on the last night of the conference hours before we even entered the Dome. There was a group of 20+ students who barely even knew each other in the World Congress Center. We were just worshiping. Someone had a guitar and someone was at a piano, another person was drumming on a ledge and we were all just playing and singing along to different worship songs, some that we'd been singing throughout the conference, others that were from the year before. It was a very simple, but very powerful act of worship that continued to grow as more people joined in. It was so honest and pure, but just as intense as a main worship session. I really wished at the time that Louie could have seen it because it was too powerful and spontaneous. It was just just a beautiful overflow of loving God. Passion was truly a raw, beautiful picture of what our lives are to look like, pouring all of our means, words, and actions, pouring our whole selves, into the worship and the mission of Christ.


Louie Giglio really set the tone of Passion 2013 with this first message. He told us that Passion is about speaking out and bringing freedom because of the spirit of God showing up. It's not about 60,000 college students coming and staying in a nice little Christian bubble; it's about 60,000 Christian college students exploding out into the dark world of the spiritually dead and praying that God would breathe life into all the peoples of the Earth. God wants to do immeasurably more in our lives and in this generation than we can ever imagine.


The story that we focused on throughout the conference was the story of Ezekiel and the valley of dry bones. I had heard this story in Sunday school before, but had never sat down and thought about the intensity or the meaning behind story before coming to Passion. I'm extremely glad that the valley of dry bones was chosen as the focus and I believe it's one of the most poignant examples of the Gospel in the entire Bible.


We actually started off a little before the story of the dry bones. We began in Ezekiel 36:24. This passage takes place while God's people are in captivity in Egypt. They are worshiping Egyptian idols and doing these really evil things to each other. God is pretty fed up with it, yet decides to rescue His people and give them another chance. But Ezekiel 36:24-32 says:

For I will take you out of the nations; I will gather you from all the countries and bring you back into your own land. I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your impurities and from all your idols. I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. Then you will live in the land I gave your ancestors; you will be my people, and I will be your God. I will save you from all your uncleanness. I will call for the grain and make it plentiful and will not bring famine upon you. I will increase the fruit of the trees and the crops of the field, so that you will no longer suffer disgrace among the nations because of famine. Then you will remember your evil ways and wicked deeds, and you will loathe yourselves for your sins and detestable practices. I want you to know that I am not doing this for your sake, declares the Sovereign Lord. Be ashamed and disgraced for your conduct, people of Israel.
God saved His people who were spiritually dead, and breathed into them new lives and new hearts and lead them as a perfect shepherd. When we get into captivity (sin patterns, idolatry, or messy circumstances), it is because of our foolishness in forgetting who God is and who we are in Him. In this passage, God intervenes and into the mess, Emmanuel comes. And this is where we picked up in Ezekiel 37:1-3:
The hand of the Lord was on me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the Lord and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. He asked me, “Son of man, can these bones live?” I said, “Sovereign Lord, you alone know.”
God showed Ezekiel a low, dark place with dry, desolate bones. There was absolutely no hope for life or joy there. It was a picture of physical death and spiritual death is the same way. Even if we don't outright see it's effects, we all know what it feels like to be hopeless, depressed, and spiritually dead to everything around us because we've all been there at some point in our lives. I'm talking about the disintegration of the soul, the point where the body has no fight left. This is the picture of hopelessness that Ezekiel 37 is essentially painting for us. It's where we were all walking at some point, spiritually, without Christ. Then God asks Ezekiel an interesting and kind of loaded question in verse 3. God asks whether or not the bones could live again, basically asking whether God could do anything, or if there are limitations to His power and ability to move and work through any situation. But God is not really asking us if He CAN do immeasurably more than we think He can, He is waiting for us to believe that He WILL.

In Mark 9:14-26, Jesus heals a boy that was possessed by a demon after all the disciples had tried and failed to heal him. It shows Jesus as someone extremely focused on God's power even in the midst of all the craziness that had to have been going on around Him in order to rescue the boy. He has that same focus with each one of our lives. Verses 23 and 24 of this story are interesting though, because the boy's father is actually questioning whether or not Jesus can heal his son. Jesus responds to him by saying that "Everything is possible for one who believes". The man then immediately tells Jesus that he does believe and asks Him to help his unbelief. Satan has a tendency to make last ditch efforts and throw the worst negativity and situations at us to prevent us from going and doing things to spread the gospel mission or prevent us from being in certain places, like Passion, where he knows that we will be in the midst of God's presence. He uses doubt to accomplish this a lot. This passage shows us that it doesn't matter that we may only have 1% of belief, God is still able and willing to work with the other 99% of us. It would be great for our prayer lives to say "God, I believe, help my unbelief". How much of a difference could that make in the way we live our day to day lives if God helped us to believe 100% that He can and will do immeasurably more than we could ever dream?


Looking back at Ezekiel 37, Ezekiel was basically saying to God, "Only you know if these bones can live, but help my unbelief". Louie then told us that during Passion 2013, we were going to be praying for four major things. We'd be praying for God's word to come to us, that it would bring us to life, that it wold repair us, and that God would restore our knowledge and belief the He is God and He can do all things.


God wants to heal something and bring life to something that no one else can do in us. God brings freedom to the captives of the Earth and He definitely brought it about in the four days of Passion 2013. I believe wholeheartedly that the millions of dried up bones in the valley of darkness in our 21st century world are going to see and walk and live again in our generation. There is going to be life breathed in to the spiritually dead and God will awakening and bring back souls to Him as only He can do. This is the mission given to us as Christ's followers, to proclaim and live out freedom and hope, to bring the message of God, who can and will do immeasurably more, into a lost and broken generation and to watch and take part in what God does through it next. Intervening into the foolishness came a voice and the valley of dry bones is listening now.

Saturday, June 29, 2013

Hello, My Name is Martha

I've probably subconsciously known this about myself for a long time...and I'm sure others have known this about me for even longer...but I finally realized something. I'm Martha.

If you're not familiar with the story, check out Luke 10: 38-42.
'Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet and listened to his teaching. But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, "Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me." But the Lord answered her, "Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her."'
I remember reading this story as a kid and thinking how silly Martha was...I mean the LORD was in her HOUSE! I remember thinking she was nuts for being concerned with chores when Jesus was sitting in her living room...I mean come on, who wouldn't be at the feet of Jesus listening to his every word? Well...Martha...she wanted everything to be perfect and go according to plan. Jesus' visit to her home should have been a welcome event rather than a disturbance for her day. How often do you willingly let Jesus interrupt your day? How often does your to-do list speak louder than what Jesus might be trying to speak to you? If you're anything like me...and Martha...the to-do list sometimes overshadows the "good portion".

I often think...what would I do if Jesus were to come waltzing into my house...into my room and pull up a chair and just sit and talk? To be perfectly honest...my first thought is embarrassment...my room is a mess...I wouldn't want him to see my room like this...He probably couldn't even find a chair to sit on in this disaster area...I need to clean really quickly...and somehow do the laundry and make something for Him to eat. I'm guessing this is probably something similar to what Martha might have thought when Jesus visited her. Instead of soaking up everything He could possibly offer me...I'd be too busy. That's not what He wants.

Jesus cares about our hearts...not if your dirty clothes are in the middle of the floor and your bed is made(I'm not saying that you don't have to clean and do your chores...no excuses). He wants us to slow down...stop for a minute...give Him our undivided attention and just listen. I bet life would be so much better if I could just learn to stop once in a while. I'm typically stressed and  I worry about everything...scheduling and planning and money and transportation and the dog and my roommate and my Granny and my mom and dad and laundry and painting the bathroom(summer project), and M28 and how to best reach out to people and if I'm doing a good job or if I'm just failing miserably. I get angry at people when things don't happen the way I thought they were going to happen(my roommate gets the brunt of this a lot). I even make sure to fill up every moment of the day so that I don't have time to stop. This is a Martha heart not a Mary heart.

I don't want to be like Martha. I don't want to miss out on the chance of a lifetime...a moment of my Savior's wisdom just because I'm more concerned with going somewhere or getting something done. I want to be like Mary...able to just stop and sit and listen whenever He speaks to me. I want to soak up every moment with Him...forget about everything on my to-do list and let the worry and stress disappear so that I can truly hear and receive what He is trying to give me. It was a really good reminder today...to stop constantly worrying about everything that needs to be done and take time to focus on what God's trying to say to me. He knows my heart isn't a Mary heart and somehow he still loves me and finds ways to speak to me even when I won't slow down and shut up. God works everything to His plan...not our plan. We don't have to worry because He is in control and He will tell us exactly what we need to hear. Don't forget to stop and listen even during the busiest of days...he's always there...waiting for you to come sit at his feet. Mary had it right all along...she chose the good portion...she chose Jesus.